...we're all mad here:

"The thought of getting older
And regretting things that I have done
Only one thing made me notice
How I failed to keep my precious one

And though I know that
You are with me always
It still makes me cry

How time just passes
I can't believe
How much I miss you
Life keeps blowing past us
I can't believe
That you're not with me"
-For the Boy - Neurosonic

I posted that song earlier in my blog, I'm listening to it now.
It still has the same effect on me as it did.
It's well pretty.

The past week has been awful for me,
I feel strange. I keep thinking of bad things.
Things that could happen, things that have already happened, things that would never happen.
Thoughts like to sit in my head, dormant, until they see a proper time to come out and torture me.

I feel alone alot of the time.
Alone in a crowd of people, almost.
It's not something I'm used to.

It feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest.